My illusions save me (1/1)

My defense is falling.

And I'm not controlling

All these things outside.

All I can do is hide.

You see the bad in me.

And you can be right.

It's what I could see

More than just a few times.

Sorry for the mess

That I've left again.

It's like match in chess

I lost every single game.

I can't just to be

Who you wanna see me.

I need more be there

In my reality.

My illusions save me

From the pain outside.

And without these things

I'll never be alright.