At least I'm not drinking

It's okay in the dayI'm staying busyTied up enough so I don't have to wonder where is heGot so sick of cryingSo just latelyWhen I catch myself, I do a one-eightyI stay up, clean the houseAt least I'm not drinkingRun around just so I don't have to think about thinkingThat silent sense of contentThat everyone getsJust disappears 'soon as the sun sets